Hmm...where to start...
As you have probably noticed, the 365 project has been suffering. With a heavy heart and a lot of kicking myself, I have decided to stop the 'official' project. After living in denial for quite some time, I had to start getting real with myself and just admit that it was getting too much for me, mentally and physically. I was feeling myself resent the project and the necessity to get a great shot every single day of both kids. The quality of my photos and the process were slipping also. Instead of capturing a true snapshot of each particular day I was just shooting away randomly at whatever was going on when I remembered to pick up the camera. This was never my intention when starting the challenge.
Some may see this as a failure on my part, or giving up, or defeatism...I know I did at first. But after a lot of thought and seeing some home truths, I am looking at this decision with a new prospective, I am choosing to take the view that I am finally getting my priorities in order. I don't mean to imply in any way, shape or form that those who have succeeded in doing a project like this have not had their priorities in order, quite the opposite. I take my hat off to those who manage to juggle babies, toddlers, spouses, housework, friends, life in general AND gorgeous photos every single day. And yes, I am thinking directly of Georgia (who first inspired me to start a project of my own), along with the many other 365 blogs I have discovered along the way. For anyone who hasn't seen Georgia's blog yet...don't wait another second...she continues to blow my mind with her insight and creativity when it comes to capturing the beauty in her life everyday - www.gregariouspeach.com - you won't regret it!
So with new insight, and a fresh pallet, I feel inspired to start a new project (of sorts). A lot more relaxed with no numbers or keeping track of days and feeling the pressure to succeed EVERY SINGLE DAY. I will endeavour to keep uploading photos of the kids and just our life in general most days. Some days I might only feature one of my cherubs, some days lots of photos of both, and some days maybe just a photo or two of something that has inspired me along my journey for that day...most importantly, some days I won't pick up my camera at all and I will just breath in my babies and enjoy them through the lenses God gave me...my eyes and my heart.
I love these two little kids and the amazing man who helped create them more and more each day and I look forward to continuing to share snippets of our life together, with no end date in sight and in a more relaxed and enjoyable way.
Peace!